6/29/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, I am sorry it has been so long since my last entry. Please help me to remember you in this love affair I am having with Gene, and all work and my famil. I feel like I am forgetting you now that things are starting to go right in m life. Please dont let me do that. But please dont take away all the good thing to make me rememebr you :) Please help me to find a church that can be my home again like SVA was. Lord, thank you so much for gene and please let it be your will that we be together. I feel like this is the right thing. Please help me to get over the insane jealousy I have with him and kaitlyn, please help me to realize that he loves me and when he says he would not hurt me he means it. But I am still afraid that he will fall back in loved with her, and although he wont mean to hurt me he will still break my heart. Please dont let that happen. God, thank you for my wonderful family and please help my brother to be sucessful in whatever he decides to do. Please help him to get a job and be happy. Please help my other brother and Jamie to believe in you so they are able to raise my baby nephew in your glory. Please help my dad to figure out what he is doing with ms. patty and all that. I want my dad to be happy but I dont want him to leave my mom. I dont know what to do. Please make it better. Jesus, please tae care of Joelle over in Turkey, she is ready to do your work but I am not ready to lose her. Please keep her safe. Please help Lisa to find you again. Help Brian to find happiness and please help me to find peace with his family. I feel so bad that I abandoned them and I want to tell them but I dont know how to go back now that I ahve already done it. Please help Brett to find you. I havent thought about him in a while how funny that I would now. And please take care of Ricky over in Hawaii and help him to stay safe and do a good job. Father, thank you for my job and my abaility to go to school and please help me to do good at both. I love you. Amen.

6/7/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for this day. Thank you so much for my family. My parents and sister. Please help me to get along better with her. Thank you for my grandma west. Please keep her in good health and please help her with her memmory. Thank you for my brother and sister-in-law and my precious baby nephew. Thank you that they were able to have him and that they didnt give up after the first miscarriage. Please help Brandon to change his mind about you so that Tate can be raised in a Christian house and family. I pray thay baby Tate will be able to grow up and know your love. Please help Brandon to believe and trust in you. Please also help Erin. She said that she doesnt know if there is something else. Please help her to know. And thank you so much for Dustin, please help him to be sucessful in whatever he does. Please help him to know your love and believe in your plan for his life. Please help him to remeber me when he is away at college and please protect him while he is gaining new life experiences. Please keep himself safe from others and from himself. Please help him to have the life he wants and one that is glorifying to you Lord. Lord, please help my little ones tomorrow. They are having their promotion to kindergarten and practice today was not so good haha. Please help Darreon to get through without melting down. And Rex to get through without disrupting everyone. Please also give me courage as I know that I have to be up there too. Please help the teachers hold it together and not cry too much! I love you. Amen.

6/1/2010

Dear Lord, thank you for this day. i can not believe that it is June already. The time is going by so fast. It seems like things are happening fast for me. I broke up with Brian, got
own place, found I job that I truly love. My baby brother is going to prom and about to graduate. And I met someone that thinks I'm the one. Me! Someone other than you actually wants to be with me forever, not out of obligation. It feels amazing and I thank you so much for love. And please let it work out. And if it doesnt I'm glad that I got to feel this alive again. Please let this work Lord and for us to grow in our relationship through you. Father, please also help the school. I know that it is having a hard time right now. Pam says its not looking good. Please help us to make enough money to continue giving these children a Christian education that is glorifying to you. Lord please also help Angie to feel better as she is sick. Please help me to mamage my money better. Jesus, please help me to let go of all the things that have happened in my past. I told pretty much everything and I realize how much resentment I still have toward a lot of people. Please help me to get past it and forgive and be able to move on. And one day when i am ready please help me to be an amazing mom. I love you. Amen