6/29/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, I am sorry it has been so long since my last entry. Please help me to remember you in this love affair I am having with Gene, and all work and my famil. I feel like I am forgetting you now that things are starting to go right in m life. Please dont let me do that. But please dont take away all the good thing to make me rememebr you :) Please help me to find a church that can be my home again like SVA was. Lord, thank you so much for gene and please let it be your will that we be together. I feel like this is the right thing. Please help me to get over the insane jealousy I have with him and kaitlyn, please help me to realize that he loves me and when he says he would not hurt me he means it. But I am still afraid that he will fall back in loved with her, and although he wont mean to hurt me he will still break my heart. Please dont let that happen. God, thank you for my wonderful family and please help my brother to be sucessful in whatever he decides to do. Please help him to get a job and be happy. Please help my other brother and Jamie to believe in you so they are able to raise my baby nephew in your glory. Please help my dad to figure out what he is doing with ms. patty and all that. I want my dad to be happy but I dont want him to leave my mom. I dont know what to do. Please make it better. Jesus, please tae care of Joelle over in Turkey, she is ready to do your work but I am not ready to lose her. Please keep her safe. Please help Lisa to find you again. Help Brian to find happiness and please help me to find peace with his family. I feel so bad that I abandoned them and I want to tell them but I dont know how to go back now that I ahve already done it. Please help Brett to find you. I havent thought about him in a while how funny that I would now. And please take care of Ricky over in Hawaii and help him to stay safe and do a good job. Father, thank you for my job and my abaility to go to school and please help me to do good at both. I love you. Amen.