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danielle-please bless her cousin summer who is having brain surgery. Please help her in her relationship with Josh and help them to find you. Danny-please help him to do well in studying your word. I know that him and I have some of the same struggles with lust, please help us both with that. Please also bring him back here if it is your will. ricky-please keep him safe while he is away. Help him to have fun while being stationed in Hawaii and if he does happened to be called up to go overseas please protect him. Please also be with his little brother and his family. Please help him find a heart for you. David-i dont know a lot about him other than we went to high school together. Please help him in whatever he is neededing from you. David-same thing, dont know him very well but please help him find you. dayna-I know that she needs you right now in all that is going on with her and dave. I dont know what is currently going on but please put your hand on her so she knows and remebers your love. please bless her kids and help her to be a good mom and for her to teacher them about you. Debbie- please help her on her way to recovery and please help her husband to find you. please her her to be a good mom and to have a safe delievery of her baby in september. please dont let her be in too much pain and let everything go smoothly. Diane-thank you so much for her and the love she has made me feel. thank you for helping her and joelle to improve their relationship to one that is more glorifying to you. please help her in whatever spiritual matters she has and please help her to stay in good health. Domineau-please help her in her career, she is so smart please help her to use that to do your will and help her to learn about you. Dustin-my baby brother! thank you so much for bringing him into my life. i love him so much. please help me to be a good sister to him and help me to be a good example. please soften his heart and help him to know you. please give me the courage to ask him to come to the seattle harvest. help and bless him next year as he startshis first year of college. please help him to make the right choices and keep him safe and help him to do well in track. and all that he does. I love you. Amen.

Fb prayers B-C

Bill-please bless him in his upcoming marriage and help them to live happily together. Billy-please keep him safe in all of his travels. Brad-please him to have patience and be a wonderful teacher to the chidlren. Help him to make a difference in their lives. Brandon-please bless him and his wife and baby. Please soften his heart towards you and make it so that my baby nephew can grow up knowing you. Breck-please help her to be a good mother and give her son all the things he needs. please turn her heart towards your glory. Brian- please turn his heart towards you and also help him to find someone that will make him truly happy. Please also be with his family that needs you, especially his grandpa who is ready to come join you. Brian-please help him to have a closer relationship with you. Brittany-please help her to have a closer relationship with you and help her to trust you more. Please make her life full of blessings and take care of her. Brittany-please bless her in her new marriage and keep her heart on you. Please also be with her brother as he goes to college and keep him safe while playing football. Brittney-please be with her in whatever she needs. Bryce-please soften his heart towards you. Caitie-please help her to understand your will for her life. Please life her up to you and help her to remember your everlasting love. Please also help her to be more outgoing and to make more friends and find a few people that she can go heart deep with that will be there to support her. Please help me to be one of those people. Caitlin- please help her to develop her relationship with you. Cami-please help her to find and remember your love and glory. Camille-please bless her in her upcoming marriage, help them to have a relationship that is glorifying to you and to think of you in her relationships. Cammy-please also bless her in her upcoming marriage and help her to come to know and love you. Carla-please help her to be a good mother to her kids and a good wife. help her and her husband to develop her relaionship with you even further and please help her husband come to know you, as it will strengthen their relationship as well. Cary-please help him with whatever struggles he may be having and please help him to find you. Cathleen-please help her to do well in her modeling career and help her to find you. Charise-please help her to be a good mother and wife and help her to remember you in all that she does. Cheryl-please help her to be sucessful in the rest of her schooling and in her career as a vet. Please also help her to find you and accept you as her lord and savior. Christian-please help him to do well in school and to find and love you. Christina-please be with her as she starts her career. Please help her to find you again and remember your love. Christine-please bless her and help her with whatever struggles she may be dealing with. Coco-please help her to be a good mother and wife and to remember you. Corey-this is a hard one to do as he is Gene's friend but please help him to find you and help him to accept you as his lord and help him with financial difficulties he is having and with temptation. Cori-please help her to finish school and to find and remember you. Courtney-please help her with whatever she may be struggling with and help her to live a life that is glorifying to you. I love you. Amen.

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Aaron-please bless him and his family. Please help his daughter to grow up strong, happy and healthy. Please help him to grow in his relaionship to grow with his wife and with you. Aeriel-please bless her and all her family. Please provide her and all her chidlren with blessings throughout their life and provide them with financial stability. Alice-please also provide her with financial stability. Please help her and Joe to grow in their relationship with you and eachother and to start a family when they are ready. Allen-please bless his life and help him with whatever he is struggling with, please be in his life. Amy-please help her to be sucessful in school and in her career. Andrea-please lift her up to you and to help her live a life that is pleasing to you. Andrew- please help him to find you and live a life for you. Andrew-please help him to live a life for you and to help him with whatever he may be struggling with. Angie- than you so much for bringing her into my life. Please provide her with financial stability and help her to have the house and life she wants. Help her to have patience and be loving to all she knows. Please help her to start a family when she is ready. Angela- please bless her and her chidlrena nd help them to live a life for you. Please provide them with guidance. Angela- please also bless her and her family. Please help her daughters to grow into becautiful young women just like Angela. Please help them to get their roof fixed and to have the money they need. Anna-please help her to live a life for you. Please help her to get her behavior under control, especially her drinking. And keep her safe. Annette- please help her in her relationships and help her to stay safe. Please let your will be known to her and what she should do with her life. Ashley-please bless her and her family. Her new husband and her children. Please help them to live a godly life. I love you. Amen.

Prayer Requests

Dear Heavenly Father, these are the prayer requests from recovery tonight and last week's also. I'm sorry I have been so selfish lately and didnt pray for the others, just for myself. Please hear my plea for my friends. For Suzanne-pleaseprovide her with saftey and guidance while she in on her trip and bring her back safely. Her daughter (i think Michelle) is getting tested again, please help that to go well and if need be please help her to get the help that she needs. For Deborah- please keep her safe in her travels. Her daughter is getting married, please help that to go smoothly. Help her mom's birthday party go smoothly and please be with her when she has to interact with her neice. Please also be with her neice who really needs you right now. For Anna Marie-thankyou so much for bringing her into my life Lord. Please help her to see your will and help her with the internal conflict she is struggling with. Please help her to get sponsors for her Germany trip and please help her to do your will, whatever that may be and please give her some internal peace. For Debbie-thank you also for bringing her into my life. Please provide her and her children with saftey in her house. Thank you for her sister. Please show you her plan and also be with her husband who really needs you right now. Please help him to see your love and to become saved. And please also help her to set healthy boundaries. For Sue-thank you for the lesosns she taught us tonight on principle 5. Thank you for providing her with the meds she is needing, and please help her in her health and food addictions. Please be with her baby sister and her husband. I cant remember exactly what they need but I lift them up to you to provide whatever it is that they are needing. Please also be with all the people that were not able to be here this week. If they are traveling please help them to come home safley. Please bring carly's brother back into your arms and grace. Thank you for helping that conversation to go well and please keep your hand in their relationship. Please be with Jackie. Lord, she really needs you. Please help her in her relationship with her husband Mark and help to feel your love and not feel so alone. I also pray for the CR summit that is next weekend. Please help the people that show up there be in your light. Please help the CR program to grow and to reach other people that are needing you. I love you. Amen. ps. Please also be with Donna's son Clint, help him to not be afraid of being alone. Please also be with her and help her to trust in you and not to be too stressed. Amen.

8/2/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, I thank you so much for the blessings in my life. Thank you for loving me so much and I love you. Thank you for helping to resolve the issue with my relationship with gene. Thank you for helping me keep faith and remember that relief can be just around the corner. And it was! Thank you father for taking care of me like you promised. You are amazing God! I love you and thank you so much. And I'm sorry for hurting myself yesterday. it was my way of letting go. It was a way of remindng myself that never again will i give anyone a bigger piece of my heart than you have father. Please help to heal my heal. Please help take the pain away. Please show me what you want me to do. I feel like I am actually ready to live a life in your footsteps, to be the person you want me to be. Please help me to be that person. Show me what you want me to do. I know that only you can heal me and I thank you for starting to do so already. You are such an amazing God! I know you will fulfill the plans you have for me and that you will work out all things for my good. I love you so much and thank you with everything I have that you love me. I am going to be happy with the life and blessings you have given me and try to live a most godly life. I love you. Amen.

7/31/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you so much for this day. It was great to escape the reality from my life for a little while but now I am ready to come back. And thank you for yesterday and all the talks and aweosme people I got to meet. Please help me to ge tto know that group of people better. I know you made me and you want me to rely on you but I feel like I am using you to take over and carry me and I cant do anything without you. And now I know why that is a problem. You made me and gave me everything in my life and you are prob hurt that I am not satisfied with it. Please forgive me. I am ready to move on with my life. Ready to be done with this hurt. I am going to let it go and be happy and satisfied with the life you have provided me with. Thank you so much for all the blessings in my life and please help me to actaully do all the things i just said and would like to do. I love you so much. Amen.

7/28/2010

Dear Havevenly Father, thank you for this day and for all the blessings you have provided me with. Thank you so much for my baby brother getting into SPU. So exciting! I am so proud of him so thank you so much for that. Thank you for my job and the opportunities for ministry that I have there. Thank you for all the people I work with. Thank you for my friends and new people I have been meeting especially through recovery. Thank you for the people who have already offered to be my accountability partners! I am so blessed by you Father! Thank you also for my wonderful family. Lord, please help all the people at my work to get along and to love one another and to forgive. Please help my brother do do everything good in your eyes and to be sucessful. Please help all my friends at CR to recovery from their many ailements. Please be with brett cause he really is needing you right now I think. Please remind him of your love. Please soften gene's heart to your love (which will be for his benefit as well as mine so I'm sorry if that is selfish) Please help angie and alice to reach financial security. Please turn my older brothers heart toward you so that my baby nephew can be raised in your glory. Jesus, please help me to always remember your love and walk in your light. Please help me to do everything that is glorifying to you. Thank you for staying with me and helping me though my hard times. I love you so much! Amen

7/25/2010-prayer requests

Dear Havenly Father, thank you for all the support and acceptance I have found at CR. I havemany prayer requests for you from some of the people I met. First for PAt- please help her son to be sucessful when taking the bar exam. Please help to guide him and be there for him no matter the result. And please give him strength in his jobs as he is under a lot of pressure right now and has a large work load. For Marcy- please help her to find a job with good pay and full benefits and please provide her with financial support. Also please help her to get involved in the program she wished to help with at saddleback church and please also help them financially as well. Please help her friend and her husband who has cancer. Please give her strength to fight the cancer and her husband the strength to give her the support she needs. For Margaret- thank you for helping her get out of a bad marriage. I dont know the circumstances very much but she described it as a very bad marriage and she has much gratitude. Please provide support for her grandmother and her son Joe and please help with her house remodel. For Grace- please provide her with financial support and for her house to become livable. Please provide her with what she needs to make her house a safe and comfortable place to be. Please help her to get ready for work in the fall, including finding a caregiver for her brother and please provide her with the financial means to do so. Please help her to continue to trust in you and please continue to provide for her. For Jackie- please help her to do well at her new job and please provide her with blessings. She didn't share much of her story but I can feel the hurt in her. Please pick her up and carry her just as you are doing for me. She really needs you right now Lord, please help her to find peace in your love. Thank you for all the blessings in my life also and for showing me what me to do. I love you. Amen.

7/21/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, than you so much for all the people from book/bibles study. They have all been so welcoming and i feel like they could be part of my church family. There is also Joelle's chuch that I can check out and the one that I am going to see when I go to recovery tomorrow. Please help me find a place that can be my church home and let me know when i am where i am supposed to be. Thank you for gracia's story and a reminder that what I am going though is nothing compared what she went through, and especially nothing compared to what you went through Jesus! Please help me keep things in perspective and remember that what you have planned for me in better than anything I could think of. Please help me to find someone with who I can have a godly relationship, one that is pleasing to you. Gracia made a comment about religion being more than a cruch it can be a stretcher. And it made me thing of the fact that i know I am being carried by you right now and i trust that you will not put me down until you know I am ready. Please give me courage during recovery tomorrow. I am nervous. Please bring more student to our schools, we need the students and it is so important for children these days to get a christian education and to know your love. And i also want to keep my job! So please bring us more students. thank you for my dad all of my family that is so suportive. I know my dad is worried about me right now but i am afraid to tell him everything that is going on because i still have hope that gene and i will get back together and i dont want my dad to hate him. Please give my dad some peace to know that I am ok and please soften gene's heart. there is really nothing else i can do. So now its up to you lord. I trust you. I love you. Amen

7/19/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for giving me a father that loves and cares for me so much. I hope he knows how much he means to me. Thank you. Forgive me for being so mean to Brett today, i feel I said thing that i probably should not have said and I lost my temper with him. I wish i could make excuses with him saying mean things about the person i love but I know you dont hear excuses. No matter what the circumstances i should be nice. Please help me to do so in the furture. Please help him to find peace also. Please help Laurie and her son, he is really needing some guidance right now and please give Laurie strength and patience. Please be with Leslie as she is growing into a woman, please be there for her and help her to stay strong always. Please help Angie to have a great time and stay safe while on vacation. Please help my baby brother get into college and achieve everything he has wanted. I am feeling a little better about the Gene situation. I know that I will be able to move on and be ok if he decides he does not want to be with me, although i really want him to want me. Lord, I pray that it is in your will for gene and i be together and have a relationship that is glorifying to you. please be with gene. he needs some guidance too. there is so much that he wants to do and i want him to be able to accomplish everything he dreams of, please be with him. And father please continue to stay with me. Thank you so much for not leaving my side since I have asked you to stay. I can feel you here with me and when i pray "take it away" you do. Thank you so much for being my rock and fortress. In your arms is where i find hope and rest. Please continue to stay with me. I love you. Amen

7/18/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for this day and for loving me and for keeping me and my friends and family all here for another beautiful day. Thank you for Joelle and please keep her safe when she goes to Turkey. Thank you for all the people I met at Bible study on Friday, I think I would really like Sarah to become my mentor and Caitie to be my friend. Please help that to happen. I have decided to enter back into recovery, even though I havent cut in a few days Im still having trouble with my eating issue, please help me get into that ant to get better. Thank you for all the people at Bible study tonight. Thank you for everyone being so welcoming, especially Henry. Please help me find a new Church home where I can be safe and accountable and loved. I would like to go to the missions conference and the women of faith conference. Please help to make that possible. I love you so much. Please help me to do good in your eyes and to remember to succumb to your will. I am having a hard time right now because I know I am supposed to pray to you and expect you to do what I am praying for but also that I need to follow your will. Those seem like different things to me. Please help me to understand. And please help me figure out what to do with gene. If it is over I wish he would just tell me, dragging it out makes it hurt worse. Should I tell him that? I know what I'm going to say tomorrow but I wondering if I should talk to him about what I hear today? Please advise. And please help Brett, I dont know what he needs right now, I dont know if he has feelings or what hismmotive is but he is being condensending rather than supportive. Lord, I am afraid that I am praying to you for the wrong reason. To fix the wrong things in my life and ignoring your will, but I want so badly for your will to be what I want! Please help me. I love you. Amen

7/17/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, I am trying so hard to submit to your will but i am having a hard time. I know I need to submit to you and know that you will take care of me in the way you have planned but I am having a hard time letting go. Please help me. In the back of my mind I am thinking that if I can submit to you that you will in the end give me what I want but I know that this is not what you want from me so please help me to give up the power. Please help me to give everything to you. Thank you so much for my family and friends. Its amazing how supportive they are when I called for help. Please help me to know what to do on Sunday, which one I should go to? Lord, please be with Brett right now. He really needs you. And Joelle, thank you so much for her and please bestow upon her every blessing you can. And Angie, please give her financial peace-and Alice too. Also, please bless James and his baby and baby mama, please let them have a hwalthy baby. And please bless baby Oliver Cutler and keep him healthy and the Lee and Brady babies! Please help Jean to he the best husband he can be and to provide Danielle with everything she needs and she him. With the exception of the things only you can give them of course. Please bless their marriage. Thank you for Bible study tonight. I think I am really getting the message you are sending me: Depend on You, You know what you are doing, please help me to listen. I love you. Amen

7/14/2010

Dear Father, feeling better today. Thank you for still carrying me. I still need you. Thank you for staying with me. I love you.
Amen

7/13/2010

Dear Lord, please forgive me again. I dont want to do it but it helps the pain. You know what I am feeling inside. Please help me. I think I fianlly got the lesson you are trying to tell me. Devote more time to you. Am I am trying but its so hard to think. My head it so full! Please fill me back up with the hopeful feeling I had earlier today. I dont have anything without hope that something will work out. It doesnt need to be with Gene if that is not your will. (Although I pray it is) Please just work my life. Im letting go. Giving it to you. Please take away mine pain. However you need to do it just please make it stop. And please be with Gene right now. He needs you too. He needs to know that he is loved and cherised above all by you. Please help him to feel that piece and to sort out his life also. And if you can please soften his heart to me. Please let it be your will. But regardless please take this pain away, however you can. I know you can make my life perfect. You dont have to do that just please take it away. And thank you for Annette and Joelle. They have been great through all of this. And Angie. Thank you for bringing them into my life. I love you. Please take care of me. Amen.

7/11/2010

Dear Lord, Iam feeling that feeling agin. I need you to pick me back up. Please dont put me down for another two weeks. I am trying to be strong but I just dont know how. Thank you so much for Joelle. Thank you for the amazing faith you have given her and her ability to pass this on to me. Please pick me up. Please hold me. I love you. Amen

7/9/2010

Dear Lord, I cant do this. I am freaking out here. I dont know what to do. I need you to help me. Calm me down. I cant do this. I dont know how. please send me help. I cant do this. Please help me. Tell me what to do. Is this punishment for lying and being so far away from you? I dont know what to do. I dont want to feel this way. There are only a few ways I know how to make this stop and I know that they are not glorifying to you Lord. Please. Please. Please...I need you now. Please come be with me. I dont know how to let this go. I dont know how to let him go. Help me. Give me the strength to be brave and move more into your light Lord. Please. I dont want to feel like this. I am begging you. Please send someone to help me through this. I cant. I cant do it. I need you so much. I am sorry I have been lying and walking far from you. Please tell me what to do. Please show me what to do. I need you. Please come protect me Father. I want to manipulate, I am thinkning of all these things that I can do but I know that none are glorifyingto you. Please help me. I think I know what I am going to do now. I love you. Amen

7/1/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, I am taking the fact that I ran out of grey's to watch and that I can't clean the floor right now to mean that I should prob talk to you right now. I am sorry for cutting, I was just feeling so overwhelmed. Please help me to not do it again. Please help me to be strong. Lord, thank you for my wonderful family and how supportive they are being of me lately. Thank you for helping me trun around my relationship with my dad. With this book I am reading about cognitive dissidence I am wondering if I am actually having false memories about the things that happened to me as a child. Not just from him but from my mom too. And there is a lot I dont remember. Is it possible that my upbringing really wasn't as bad as I thought it was? I dont know. Please help. Please also take care of Dustin and help Brandon to believe in you so that my baby nephew can be raised in your glory. Please help Erin and Travis to be happy and to have a baby when you think they are ready. Lord, thank you for all the opportunities that you have provided me with at work and please help me to be a good employee and teacher. Please help me to have patience with the children and please help me to display your grace, especially for the ones that need to be shown some extra love. Please help Darreon and Jewels and Kaelyn and Teegan to be happy children and be good. Thank you for Angie. she has been such a good friend to me. Thank you for all the people I work with. Please help our field trip to go well tomorrow and pleaes stop the rain. Father, I am sorry for all the sins I have comitted and I pray that you will forgive me for everything especially if I am remembering my childhood as worse than it was. That would be just awful not only for me, because it would make me feel different as a person. I was always impressed with how "good" I turned out in spite of what has happened to me. If those things didn's happen then what is so special about me? Please help me to see what you see in me. But imagine the hurt I have put on my parents! Please forgive me and help me to move on. Father, thank you for Gene and please help him to feel better. I love you. Amen.

6/29/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, I am sorry it has been so long since my last entry. Please help me to remember you in this love affair I am having with Gene, and all work and my famil. I feel like I am forgetting you now that things are starting to go right in m life. Please dont let me do that. But please dont take away all the good thing to make me rememebr you :) Please help me to find a church that can be my home again like SVA was. Lord, thank you so much for gene and please let it be your will that we be together. I feel like this is the right thing. Please help me to get over the insane jealousy I have with him and kaitlyn, please help me to realize that he loves me and when he says he would not hurt me he means it. But I am still afraid that he will fall back in loved with her, and although he wont mean to hurt me he will still break my heart. Please dont let that happen. God, thank you for my wonderful family and please help my brother to be sucessful in whatever he decides to do. Please help him to get a job and be happy. Please help my other brother and Jamie to believe in you so they are able to raise my baby nephew in your glory. Please help my dad to figure out what he is doing with ms. patty and all that. I want my dad to be happy but I dont want him to leave my mom. I dont know what to do. Please make it better. Jesus, please tae care of Joelle over in Turkey, she is ready to do your work but I am not ready to lose her. Please keep her safe. Please help Lisa to find you again. Help Brian to find happiness and please help me to find peace with his family. I feel so bad that I abandoned them and I want to tell them but I dont know how to go back now that I ahve already done it. Please help Brett to find you. I havent thought about him in a while how funny that I would now. And please take care of Ricky over in Hawaii and help him to stay safe and do a good job. Father, thank you for my job and my abaility to go to school and please help me to do good at both. I love you. Amen.

6/7/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for this day. Thank you so much for my family. My parents and sister. Please help me to get along better with her. Thank you for my grandma west. Please keep her in good health and please help her with her memmory. Thank you for my brother and sister-in-law and my precious baby nephew. Thank you that they were able to have him and that they didnt give up after the first miscarriage. Please help Brandon to change his mind about you so that Tate can be raised in a Christian house and family. I pray thay baby Tate will be able to grow up and know your love. Please help Brandon to believe and trust in you. Please also help Erin. She said that she doesnt know if there is something else. Please help her to know. And thank you so much for Dustin, please help him to be sucessful in whatever he does. Please help him to know your love and believe in your plan for his life. Please help him to remeber me when he is away at college and please protect him while he is gaining new life experiences. Please keep himself safe from others and from himself. Please help him to have the life he wants and one that is glorifying to you Lord. Lord, please help my little ones tomorrow. They are having their promotion to kindergarten and practice today was not so good haha. Please help Darreon to get through without melting down. And Rex to get through without disrupting everyone. Please also give me courage as I know that I have to be up there too. Please help the teachers hold it together and not cry too much! I love you. Amen.

6/1/2010

Dear Lord, thank you for this day. i can not believe that it is June already. The time is going by so fast. It seems like things are happening fast for me. I broke up with Brian, got
own place, found I job that I truly love. My baby brother is going to prom and about to graduate. And I met someone that thinks I'm the one. Me! Someone other than you actually wants to be with me forever, not out of obligation. It feels amazing and I thank you so much for love. And please let it work out. And if it doesnt I'm glad that I got to feel this alive again. Please let this work Lord and for us to grow in our relationship through you. Father, please also help the school. I know that it is having a hard time right now. Pam says its not looking good. Please help us to make enough money to continue giving these children a Christian education that is glorifying to you. Lord please also help Angie to feel better as she is sick. Please help me to mamage my money better. Jesus, please help me to let go of all the things that have happened in my past. I told pretty much everything and I realize how much resentment I still have toward a lot of people. Please help me to get past it and forgive and be able to move on. And one day when i am ready please help me to be an amazing mom. I love you. Amen

5/24/2010

Dear Jesus, thank you for this day. Please help me to stop being so needy and remember that you are enough for me no matter what is going on in my life. Please dont forget about me. I love you. Amen

5/23/2010

Dear Lord, thank you for this day and all the blessings in my life. Thank You for my family and friends. Thank You for Dustin and for making him so talented and smart. And for my mama and daddy who I know love me. Please be with Erin and Brandon, with the loss of Grandma E. I know she is up there with you now and is with Grandpa E. Please take care of them. Please help Dustin to do good in state next weekend and please help me to be able to be there. Thank you for Joelle and please help me to be a better friend to her. Please help me to also reconnect with some of my other friends and to also make new one. Please help me to not be so shy. Thank you also for Gene, I feel like he is such a blessing to me and I really pray you put him in my life to stay. Please though help me to remember, to remember you. Please dont let me get so wrapped up in my love for him that I neglect everyone else then begin to resent him like I always do. I really want this to work Lord, and I will try to make is work as long as You and he want me to. Lord, please help me to be a better employee. To have more patience and to make a positive difference in the lives of my littles ones. Thank you for putting so much love in my heart for them. Father, please also help me with school, I am having a hard time with it. I just feel like I am not smart enough sometimes and I know you dont want me to think that because you made me the way you wanted to, so please help me to be sucessful and to make my dad proud. And I will make sure to study harder. Lord, please let me win the lottery or somehow get lots of money (without my daddy having to die or someting like that). I love you so much. Thank you for taking care of me. Amen.

5/20/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you for this day and for all the blessings in my life. I feel like you are really answering prayers today. It was just today that Angie and I were talking and then tonight Gene asked me for a prayer request. Thank you so much for helping us grow in our relationship through you. It makes me think that this is really where you want me to be right now. Please let it be your will for us to be together. Lord, thank you so much for Angie, she has been a good friend to me and Alice, please help her and Sherri to feel better. And please also be with the Pope family who is having financial troubles right now. Thank you so much for my job and all the rest of the people I work with. Father, please be with Joelle, she is getting ready to go and spread your word and it is dangerous for her there. Please protect her. Lord, please be with Randy. He is having a hard time feeling your love right now. Please put your hands on him and be with him and help him to know that you have a plan for his life and that you will never leave him. Please help him to find joy in music again and maybe that could be a way for him to worship and show you his love for you? Father, please help all the young elementary girls, some of them are so angry and they really need you. Please especially be with Dominique and help her with her anger and attitude. Lord, I am really stressing about money right now. Please let me win the lottery or somehow get lots of money. I know I should be greatful for everything you have given me and I am but I feel like I am sinking and I dont make enough money to pull myself out, please help me. And please help me to stop biting my nails and picking at the scabs from the stress. It hurts. I love you. Amen.

5/19/2010

Dear Flather, please help me to be stong with what is going on with me and Gene right now. Please help me to get through it and if it is Your will please help us to get through it together. Please help me to know that I am enough through you and that no matter what happens I know that you love me. And if this really is just us both being insecure please help us to be happy together through your love and help us to know that we are both worthy. Lord, please also help Anglea and her family with their house/roof problem. They are such good people so please help them to be ok and to give them the financial support they need. Jesus, please help me with my money issues. I know that you will provide me with all I need but I feel like I need more help. I dont want to have to find a new job because I love my job and am experiencing fellowship for the first time. Please let me win the lottery or somehow get lots of money. Please help me to remember that you will take care of me always. I love you. Amen

5/12/2010

Heavenly Father, thank you for this day, for my wonderful job and my family. Please help my car do be done tomorrow and please help me to drive super safe in dad's car. Please dont let anything happen to it. Lord, please be with Gene right now, he really needs you. Please help him to feel your love and to know that no matter what he is never alone. Thank you so much for bringing him into my life and I pray that it is your will for us to be together. Jesus, please also be with Brian, I think he is having a hard time with everything judging by the text messages he sent me that weren't very nice. I have forgiven him Lord, please help him to feel better and to find someone he can be happy with. Lord, please help all the drama that is going on at work with Alice and Pam etc. Please dont let me get in to too much trouble whenever Luanne decides to talk to me. Please help me to show her how much I love and value my job. I love you. Amen

5/6/2010

Dear Lord, quick prayers for tonight. Thank you for this day and for Gene. Please help him to figure out what he wants to do with his music and please help him to do good with his audition. I am trying so hard to turn over my relationship with him to You. I need your guidance and reassurance. I know that you have a plan for me and that I must submit to you. Please help me to do so. Father, please also be with Brian and his family. I dont know if he is still hurting but I know I am. Please help me to feel better about the whole situation and please give me the courage to tell his family how much I love them. And please take care of them. Jesus, thank you for my job and please help me to be a better employee and to be on time. Lord, please help me to manage my money better. I love you. Amen.

5/3/2010

Dear Father, I cant believe its already may! Thank you for taking care of me and helping me though all the hard times recently. Thank you so much for giving me the courage to finally leave Brian, and for my wonderful family who were so supportive of the whole process. Thank you for my mom who did so much for me. And of course thank you for my dad and brother. Jesus, please guide me in my situation with Brett, I know what I need to forgive and not judge. Those things I can do but I am unsure if that means I should move on and be friends of what I should do. Please guide me. Lord, thank you so much for bringing Gene into my life. Thank you that he is so laid back and relaxed and that I can really be the crazy person I am around him. Please help him figure out what he wants to do in terms of his band and stuff. Please help him to be sucesssful in his music as that really is his passion. And please help him to develop a passion for you too. Father, please help me to get back into the routine of going to church. I have not been going and I know you want me to be there. I am thinking Mars Hill would be a good place to go. Please show me if you think that is the place for me to be. Thank you so much for my wonderful job and the kids and co-workers. Jesus, please help me with my budget things. I have such a hard time with my money. Please help me to have self control! Lord, I love you and feel like you are really taking care of me right now. I know that you are always with me, please help me to remember that even when times get hard for me. Lord, please help me to make time for my homework and to get good grades. I love you. Amen.

4/28/2010

Dear God, this is actually pretty close to the actual date this time because I am writing this before midnight. Please help me to keep a better schedule and to manage my time better. Please help me to make time for my homework and please help me to remember to actually do it. Lord, thank you for this day and for all the blessing in my life. I feel very blessed and taken care of right now. And I love you always please help me to remember that even when times are hard for me. Jesus, thank you so much for my job and please help me to be a good employee and member of the RCS team. I love working there so much. Please help all the little ones that need you. Especially Darreon and Jewels and Kaelyn too. Please help to take away all the anger in their little hearts and be filled with your love. Lord, please also keep in mind the Kilphardt family and little John. Please help things to be better in his life. And for Doninique as well. Please help her to be in a stable environment where she can grow in your love. Father, thank you for my friend Lisa and please watch over her. Please help me to keep from judging her as I know I also do things that do not please you. Please help me to be a better friend to her. And if she does end up joining the military please keep her safe. God, please keep all of our troops safe, protect them as they protect my right to love you. Lord, please also guide me in my relationship with Gene. Please help me to figure out what is going on with Brett and please help both of them to feel your love and help them to grow with you. Thank you for Joelle and please help her to spread your word. And please also be with her dad right now as he is really needing you. Father, thank you for my family. Thank you for baby tate. Please keep him healthy and strong. Please bless the relationship of Erin and Travis. Please help my brother to succeed in all he does, also Joelle's brother and sister and Lisa's brother. Well both of Lisa's brothers actually. I love you. Amen

4/27/2010

Dear Lord, quick prayers for tonight. Thank you for this day and the many blessing you have given me. Please help me to be healthy and not so sleepy all the time. I will try to do my part in that too. I feel a headache coming on so please dont let that effect me at work tomorrow. Jesus, I want to pray for Darreon and Jewels. Please bless their family anf help those kids to find the peace they need. Please especially help Darreon with all his anger. Lord, please also be with Dominique and help her imporve her attitiude and please help me to have more patience with her. I know her parents are going through a divorce and that must be hard on her. Lord, please also help Alice (and all the staff) to be patient with the kids, help us remeber that kids will be kids and we should let them be so. Lord, please also bless the Didian family, what they are doing for those children is wonderful. All for now. I love you. Amen

4/26/2010

Dear Jesus, thank you for this day. Thank you for my health and well being and health of my friends and family. Lord, thank you for my dad who very generously fixed my car and got it detailed for me. I am very thankful for him and please help me to make you both proud. Father, thank you again for my job and that I can be in fellowship with other Christians. Thank you so much for Luanne and for her getting me a ticket to the auction. I am so amazed by the giving of others for our school. Two people donated 10,000 a piece and so many people donated. Im sure that we got to the million dollar mark which is amazing for just 13 years. Makes me think maybe I should not be afraid of the number thirteen afterall. Although I know that there is really no such thing as luck I still do something. Random. So thank you for my job and school and for all the people who donated and bought things at the auction so other people will be able to go to our school and know Your love. Jesus, thank you for Joelle and that she came over today. Please help me to be a better friend for her and please keep her safe when she goes to Turkey. Please help her to share her love for you with other people and let them know your awesomeness. And also please take care of her family. Especially her dad, I know he might be going into a manic state and I pray that you help him and his family through that. Lord, please be with Lisa, she needs to be reminded for your love for her as she has gone way off track and are doing many things that are not glorifying to you. Please also help me to not judge her. I know it is not my place to pass judgement. Lord please guide me in the situation with Brett. I am wondering if I should follow Joelle's advice? I think it is probably the best option. But please help him to know your love. Lord, please touch Gene's heart. I would lovee to be able to have a relationship with him that is pleasing to you. Lord, please also help me to get to know Cathy better and Laurie too. Please help Jennifer out with her money troubles. Father, please take care of my brother and the members of his class as they are getting ready to graduate and go off to college. Please guide me in my relationship with Erin. And thank you for the other Erin and please bless her marriage and keep it happy always. Please also be with Vicky as she is about to have her baby and also with Marlyssa who just has her baby girl. I love you. Amen

4/10/2010

Dear Lord, please forgive me for my sins today. I know that I was angry and decietful and I am sorry. Please lead me on a path of truth Lord. Thank You so much for my amazing friends and family. Thanks for my dad that loves me so much and Lord please help me to make you both proud. Please help my brother to suceed in school and track Lord and to become sucessful in all he wants to do. With my sisters recent marriage please give them endless joy and love within You. Father please bless baby John Reid Hanson born to my cousins a few days ago. Please help him to grow healthy and strong. Heavenly Father thank You so much for my job, a place where I can make a difference in the lives of children and be surrounded by people that love You. Lord, it helps me to feel Your love for me. Please bless all the staff there and give us patience and guidance when it comes to our little ones. Thank You so much for Angie, she is a good friend to me and is teaching me more about You. You have given her a special gift Lord. And thank you for Alice, I know she is having troubles with her anger and I pray that You help her with those feelings. Thank you for Luanne and Jennifer and help me to do a good job for them. And thank you for Pam and Sherri, I just learned of some trials they have gone though in the past and I so admire their courage and faith in You, Lord. And thank you also for Laurie and please help me to get to know her better. Havenly Father, please guide me in what to do about Brett. I am feeling angry and I know I need to love the ones that make me angry but it is hard for me to do. Please Lord, help me to forgive and believe and to move on. And as always, please show Brett your love and guide him. Lord, thank you also for Gene and his family. They have been so kind and inviting to me. Please show me the plans You have for Gene and myself, Lord. Please let our relationship please You and please show me what to do. Lord , please bless Joelle and keep her withYyou always. Please help her to find her way to spread Your word. I love you. Thank you for loving me.

4/12/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, please forgive me for treating my body so badly this weekend and please help me to recover. Lord please give me the strength to never do that again. Please help me to gain more self control in all forms of my life. Lord, please aslo help Joelle to forgive me for being so selfish and not making time for her. Please help me to have better priorities my Lord. And please help her to find her way with the ministries she is trying to do. Lord please help me to feel better. I am still feeling sick so please give me the strength to do good at work tomorrow and to have patience. Lord, please take care of all the people working and attending RCS, bless them as they really love you and some people there really need your help. Thanks for helping me to get to know Pam better over this last week, Lord. Please also help my car to be fixed soon. And Lord, please stay with Brett. I know he started going back to your Church Lord but even if he is doing if for the wrong reasons please help him to find peace in You again. Father, thank you for my family and my friends who I know love me. Thank you for Gene and please reveal your plan for us. Father, please please please help me to feel better and I promise I will never do that again! Amen

4/4/2010

Dear Lord, thank you for this day and for dying for me on the cross and then rising again. Thank you for loving me enough to suffer for me. Please help me to live the life you want me to live and to make up for what you had to go through. Father, please help me to make you proud. Lord, please dont let my catr be totalled. I am wondering Lord, if you were trying to tell me something? And maybe also telling me something by making my monroe fall out twice? Lord, I love you so much and thank you for all your blessings. Thank you so much for my family and Lord, please help me to make them proud. Please help my brother to get into the college he wants and to be sucessful. And Lord please help me to do better and be more focused this quarter. Father, I know that today especially of all days should be about forgiveness but sometimes I find it so much easier to stay mad! Lord, please guide me and show me what to do when it comes with Brett, I know that he is being manipulative and that I have done the same to him in the past but that is not what we need to be to eachother Lord. Please help him to find his way back to you and please help him to stop lying and playing with me. Lord thank you also for Joelle, please help her to do your work. Thank you for Luanne and please help me to be a good employee to her. And Lord, thank you for Gene and please show me what you have planned for us. Lord, please help Brittany to be sucessful in school and please guide her saftley home. Lord, thank you for my bio-mom's side of the family. It is amazing to know that I am loved by people that don't even know me. Father, please help Erin's wedding day to be everything she ever hoped it would be. Please help me to make you proud. Amen.

3/29/2010

Lord thank you so much for this day and everything you have given me in my life. Thank you for dying for me and my sins so that I can live with you forever. Lord please give me strength to do my job great and me a good role model for those kids. Especially Jewels, Kaelyn, Darreon, Dawson etc. You know the ones that need help Lord. And please keep an eye on Daniel E too. Please help him find a school where he can get the help he needs and give patience to his family. Lord, thank you so much for giving me a job in which I can make an inpact on children's lives and be surrounded by people that love you. Thank you very much for Angie, Lord she has been such a good friend to me and guider. Father please help Brett get the help that he needs and help his bi-polar get under control. Please help him to feel your love and to know that you will never give up on him. Also Lord please help his family to accept and understand him. Father please also help Brain to deal with the break up and to move on and be happy. Please remind him of your love. Lord thank you so much for Jean as he is the one that brought be back to you adn reminded me that you will never leave me.Thank you for my family and friends. Please help Joelle to find a place in the missions organization so she can help to spread your word and please keep her safe. Father, please help me to become the strong independant woman within your love and life. Amen

03/27/2010

Just Testing