7/9/2010

Dear Lord, I cant do this. I am freaking out here. I dont know what to do. I need you to help me. Calm me down. I cant do this. I dont know how. please send me help. I cant do this. Please help me. Tell me what to do. Is this punishment for lying and being so far away from you? I dont know what to do. I dont want to feel this way. There are only a few ways I know how to make this stop and I know that they are not glorifying to you Lord. Please. Please. Please...I need you now. Please come be with me. I dont know how to let this go. I dont know how to let him go. Help me. Give me the strength to be brave and move more into your light Lord. Please. I dont want to feel like this. I am begging you. Please send someone to help me through this. I cant. I cant do it. I need you so much. I am sorry I have been lying and walking far from you. Please tell me what to do. Please show me what to do. I need you. Please come protect me Father. I want to manipulate, I am thinkning of all these things that I can do but I know that none are glorifyingto you. Please help me. I think I know what I am going to do now. I love you. Amen