7/13/2010

Dear Lord, please forgive me again. I dont want to do it but it helps the pain. You know what I am feeling inside. Please help me. I think I fianlly got the lesson you are trying to tell me. Devote more time to you. Am I am trying but its so hard to think. My head it so full! Please fill me back up with the hopeful feeling I had earlier today. I dont have anything without hope that something will work out. It doesnt need to be with Gene if that is not your will. (Although I pray it is) Please just work my life. Im letting go. Giving it to you. Please take away mine pain. However you need to do it just please make it stop. And please be with Gene right now. He needs you too. He needs to know that he is loved and cherised above all by you. Please help him to feel that piece and to sort out his life also. And if you can please soften his heart to me. Please let it be your will. But regardless please take this pain away, however you can. I know you can make my life perfect. You dont have to do that just please take it away. And thank you for Annette and Joelle. They have been great through all of this. And Angie. Thank you for bringing them into my life. I love you. Please take care of me. Amen.