7/21/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, than you so much for all the people from book/bibles study. They have all been so welcoming and i feel like they could be part of my church family. There is also Joelle's chuch that I can check out and the one that I am going to see when I go to recovery tomorrow. Please help me find a place that can be my church home and let me know when i am where i am supposed to be. Thank you for gracia's story and a reminder that what I am going though is nothing compared what she went through, and especially nothing compared to what you went through Jesus! Please help me keep things in perspective and remember that what you have planned for me in better than anything I could think of. Please help me to find someone with who I can have a godly relationship, one that is pleasing to you. Gracia made a comment about religion being more than a cruch it can be a stretcher. And it made me thing of the fact that i know I am being carried by you right now and i trust that you will not put me down until you know I am ready. Please give me courage during recovery tomorrow. I am nervous. Please bring more student to our schools, we need the students and it is so important for children these days to get a christian education and to know your love. And i also want to keep my job! So please bring us more students. thank you for my dad all of my family that is so suportive. I know my dad is worried about me right now but i am afraid to tell him everything that is going on because i still have hope that gene and i will get back together and i dont want my dad to hate him. Please give my dad some peace to know that I am ok and please soften gene's heart. there is really nothing else i can do. So now its up to you lord. I trust you. I love you. Amen