7/1/2010

Dear Heavenly Father, I am taking the fact that I ran out of grey's to watch and that I can't clean the floor right now to mean that I should prob talk to you right now. I am sorry for cutting, I was just feeling so overwhelmed. Please help me to not do it again. Please help me to be strong. Lord, thank you for my wonderful family and how supportive they are being of me lately. Thank you for helping me trun around my relationship with my dad. With this book I am reading about cognitive dissidence I am wondering if I am actually having false memories about the things that happened to me as a child. Not just from him but from my mom too. And there is a lot I dont remember. Is it possible that my upbringing really wasn't as bad as I thought it was? I dont know. Please help. Please also take care of Dustin and help Brandon to believe in you so that my baby nephew can be raised in your glory. Please help Erin and Travis to be happy and to have a baby when you think they are ready. Lord, thank you for all the opportunities that you have provided me with at work and please help me to be a good employee and teacher. Please help me to have patience with the children and please help me to display your grace, especially for the ones that need to be shown some extra love. Please help Darreon and Jewels and Kaelyn and Teegan to be happy children and be good. Thank you for Angie. she has been such a good friend to me. Thank you for all the people I work with. Please help our field trip to go well tomorrow and pleaes stop the rain. Father, I am sorry for all the sins I have comitted and I pray that you will forgive me for everything especially if I am remembering my childhood as worse than it was. That would be just awful not only for me, because it would make me feel different as a person. I was always impressed with how "good" I turned out in spite of what has happened to me. If those things didn's happen then what is so special about me? Please help me to see what you see in me. But imagine the hurt I have put on my parents! Please forgive me and help me to move on. Father, thank you for Gene and please help him to feel better. I love you. Amen.